Mid-life crisis played backwards

I was recently telling someone about some of the changes I was making, and I was surprised by the reaction. First, the rundown:

  1. My current apartment lease is up in a few months, so I’m working ahead a bit to break down some of my studio and put it on eBay and Craigslist. The idea is to sell the bulkier items off so I wouldn’t have to move them. It’s not so much about the money as it is about not having so much dead weight around when I relocate.
  2. I also realized that my Playstation 3 had been collecting dust for several months. So I packed it up and sent it off to my ex-wife in order to use it as a Blu Ray disc player (as well as catch up on some games that she had bought but hadn’t finished before we split). The last time I had used it was to prep for an audition with a group that does music for video games. Now that’s done the unit has gone dark, and any other games I’ve picked up for study I have run on my studio PC.
  3. When I move, it will definitely be to a smaller place. I’ve been at the same apartment for nearly three years now, and it’s definitely more than I need now that the occupancy is “1″. Even if the per-square-foot price is higher, I know I’ll be paying less rent.
  4. I was hit on my motorcycle last year, and hadn’t bought a replacement vehicle yet. Since I was working freelance out of the studio, I didn’t need a car for a commute – and most of the amenities (grocery, restaurant, shops) are within walking distance of where I live. But now that I’m venturing out a bit again (though my current commute is by Metro rail) I’m looking at buying a car. I had rented several cars during my vehicle-free stint, and the VW Passat has a clear lead in my book. But I’m still looking around and will find something that’s environmentally and economically reasonable and physically comfortable.
  5. My birthday is Saturday, and for now the plan is to catch either “Alice in Wonderland” or “Green Zone” in the theater, and the rest of the weekend is to be spent packing up the apartment and catching up on some reading (see my post about John Gardner on this blog). Boring, but true.

The reaction was “if you’re going to have a mid-life crisis you need to spice things up a bit. So far, you’ve gotten it all wrong.” And when I thought about it – giving away toys, going from a motorcycle to a sensible car, selling off half my studio, moving into a cheaper place – it’s all exactly the opposite of what someone should do for a well-executed mid-life meltdown.

It reminds me of the joke about the country song when played backwards – your dog comes back, your truck gets fixed and your girlfriend becomes faithful again.

:)

 

I recently quoted a line from John Gardner’s “Grendel” in a discussion forum, and it jogged more than a few memories. It reminded me that I hadn’t read the book in quite a few years, and that I owed it to myself to give it a re-read sometime soon. It’s one of the books from school that I keep on the shelf to this day, along with Eric Hoffer’s “The True Believer” and Alvin Toffler’s “Future Shock: The Third Wave”. I suppose that the quote popped up out of the dusty corners of my mind because I had spotted it while sorting books to donate to the local library before my move to a new apartment. Gardner’s work and the others were most certainly the in “keeper” stack.

So while waiting for the morning pot of coffee to brew, I decided to look Gardner up on Wikipedia to see what’s been said about his life and work. The thing that startled me was the comment about the over-arching themes in his most popular novels, “The Sunlight Dialogues”, “Grendel” and “October Light”:

Each book features brutish, isolated figures struggling for integrity and understanding in an unforgiving society.

That kind of hit home. I suppose there’s good reason why I always found so much sympathy for his characters – even as far back as my high school years. And all these years later, things are not so different on that level. My life, summed up in eleven words is, in a word – potent. And of course I’m sure that many people feel the same way – which is a tribute to his notoriety as an author. But still, I feel like I’ve had my bell rung.

So once I’ve done with “Grendel” [again] I suppose I’ll look up his other works and go through them, too. Maybe when I stop by the local library to donate some reference books [I've been carrying around for years and should have given away long ago] I can get a library card and check out “The Sunlight Dialogues” and “October Light” while I’m there.

“Things fade. Alternatives exclude.

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Is this a pipe I see before me?

It’s not like I walk around with blinders on – I see the bruskers and pan-handlers every day. Like everyone else that lives in this town (and walks a distance longer than a city block) I get accosted for the odd quarter/dime/dollar by those that look [and smell] like they’ve not bathed in a week, and seem to be solely focused on getting their next fix. But when I saw the used glass pipe at my Metro stop, I took specific notice.

One reason is that my little “leg” of the Metro is clean. It’s a segment of the Read Line [between Universal City and Hollwood/Vine] that’s heavily traveled by tourists, and for that reason alone I think they’re particularly well-kept. Just the other day I saw a pair of Metro employees cleaning the underside of an escalator to a near-mirror finish. Holy crap – the *under*side of an escalator! In my years of riding the Metro in DC, I never saw that – ever. And that might be the reason why I’ve never seen drug paraphernalia dumped on the Metro platform before. Most likely anything of that sort would have been swept up by the time I showed up for daily commute.

But this was a late run home after a long day at work. It was on the edge of the platform like it had been dropped right as someone was stepping on or off a train. I entered the platform area behind a small group of people – and it was pretty obvious who was the local and who was the tourist. The locals walked right by the artifact without a second glance, and the tourists stopped and gawked for a moment – before becoming self-conscious of even being near such a thing – with the the wife pulling the husband and kids away to wait for the next train. For that first moment, their unguarded expressions showed all of the fascination of aliens visiting from another planet. It was pretty obvious that the closest they’d been to anything like that was watching “Traffic” on HBO.

Another thing that made this particularly poignant was the recent arrest of Lief Garrett for drug possession at a Metrolink stop. When I saw that pipe I immediately thought of that arrest – and perhaps the staring tourists had done the same. I’m not one for Schadenfreude, but it goes to the pervasiveness of the drug problem. From the latest pill-popping pop-star on the skids to the most anonymous addict, this stuff is everywhere. I blog about the latest cool, nifty thing I’ve discovered living here in LA LA Land and I thought it only fair to show a bit of its underbelly, too.

So, I took a quick picture of the pipe as an exhibit for this blog, and then went to pick it up and toss it into the garbage. I didn’t want to leave it there for someone to step on and possibly cut their foot – and I also didn’t feel right about just kicking it down into the rail area. I had been fighting off a respiratory infection and had a package of Hall’s cough drops in the laptop bag that goes with me back and forth to work. So I emptied it of the last few cough drops and used the plastic zip-lock bag as a “glove” to pick up the pipe and place it in the garbage. Again, I caught the tourists staring – this time at me as I stepped away from the trash bin and back to the edge of the train platform. I’m sure there’s one thing we were both thinking at that moment – it’s hard to know how to feel about something like this when it’s this up-close-and-personal.

 

Commuting on the Metro, yes, in LA…

When I lived in DC, I used public transport to go back and forth from Laurel, MD to Herndon, VA. The bad news is that it took two hours each way, each day. The good news is that by car that expanded to 2 1/2 hours on most days. So not only was it shorter by rail, but someone else had the “honor” of driving and I could do other things like read and work on my laptop. Now that I’m in LA LA Land, I’m using the Metro, but the distances are much, much shorter. It’s a simple two-stop hop on the Red Line from Universal City to Hollywood/Vine. I was surprised that both had their own signature look, and of course as I’ve used the Metro more often these days I’ve found that the transit authority has gone out of their way to make each stop distinctive.

decor at Uni City station

film cans line Hollywood/Vine

The film cans are EVERYWHERE

The thing that I found amazing was the use of old film canisters at the Hollywood/Vine Metro stop. There must be thousands of them mounted on the ceilings throughout the structure. I suppose that there are scads of them stacked up in storage around town, but it was still surreal to see them used in this way. It’s a very unique approach to industrial art – both a very Hollywood-styled bit of self-congratulation while also making an interesting use of space and architecture.

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Observing Hollywood

So here’s a slightly better view of the Hollywood sign than I had originally posted when the rainbow popped up. This was the first sunny morning since I started working the new job, and even though the limits of the phone camera are annoying, it’s more than nothing.

The real treat here was to see the snow-capped mountains (the San Gabriels, I think) behind the Griffith Observatory. Again the phone cam doesn’t do it justice but it looked like you could almost reach out and touch it – a very nice way to start the week.

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